Let’s talk about God and the world

there’s a saying in Germany – to talk about God and the world. It basically means you talk about nothing and everything.
I remember, as a child, when my dad came back home from meeting old friends and my mum asked him how it had been. He would often reply: “we talked about God and the world”.
it meant, they had talked about a lot of things, they had engaging conversations but no truly important news or anything.

I’m lying in bed after a …well, what kind of day was it really? 

There were many beautiful things today. Church was nice. 

I find it hard to “grasp” Jesus. Fully human and fully God. Really? If yes, how? 

In my mind he’s more of a human being, a very spiritual human being. 

I’m very interested in historical abound about Jesus and his life. And generally historical facts concerning biblical figures and stories. 

I can fathom an entity that is God. But who was Jesus? And how can he be everywhere, even within us? If he is the same as God, a part of him… what would that mean? 

I like how going to church opens up these questions. Though, at the moment I’d rather just get answers instead of even more questions. 

I like the food we ate today. Ocra soup for dinner. We chopped vegetables together and had a few calm and enjoyable moments together in the kitchen.  Dor lunch we had pizza margherita with extra cheese and mushrooms (which means it wasn’t Margaherita anymore, I know. 

We watched an interesting documentary about time. I only saw the last but where they talked about how happiness happens when we don’t need to pay attention to time and when we can spend time with people we love. 

It wasn’t an easy day. Parenting was tough today. I felt angry, clueless, sad. But tonight as I’m writing this, I want to focus on the beautiful moments. 

The funny thing about parenting is that no matter how you feel about your child by the end of the day, you still continue to plan that birthday party for them, but that present you know they will love and keep looking for ways for them to feel better, to learn to be more regulated. 

It’s not like a friendship or even any other family relationship where you let loose a little when you’re in disharmony for a while. You don’t distance yourself. You stay close. You co-regulate their nervous system. When they fight you, you hold their emotions — and yours. 

You don’t take attacks personally, stay calm. And by 7pm you’re so exhausted you fall asleep right with them while you’re cuddling them, so they can fall asleep. And while thinking about hope to bring more peace and harmony to your family tomorrow.