Is it selfish to be a mum and still have a hobby? I’ve been thinking about this lately. 

My logical brain knows – no, it’s not. 

It’s good for me, it helps me feel better. 

And that way it also helps my children because I’m more patient with them after doing something just for myself. 

But then there’s my heart. 

My heart knows how sad my kids are when I’m gone. 

My heart knows that my husband’s had a long day. And now he’s getting two children ready for bed all on his own. 

And my heart longs for these bed time cuddles. 

My children are so sweet, so perfect and they are growing up so fast. 

In a way, every minute not spent with them is a waste of my life time…

 However, I only feel this insane longing for them when I do go to work and when i do go to the orchestra rehearsal. 

As they grow older, they will want more space as well. 

Plus, when I imagine a future for my daughter, I wouldn’t want her to believe she has to give herself up to be an amazing wife and mother (should she ever choose to be one).